There is nothing worse than loosing someone. You could lose them from cancer, from natural causes and from many other ways. I have never known anyone who had committed suicide. That was until this week when a friend of mine took his own life. I am not sure how he took his own life except that he did. I do not care to know. What I do know is that it is sad. His wife and 5 year old daughter will have to live through this and it’s just not fair. It’s not fair that help was available and chose not to get it. It’s not fair that his sweet little girl will never understand and will be without her Daddy. It’s not fair to his wife that she has to carry the burden of this and have to start over. It’s just not fair. I do know that depression is a serious illness . I know this because I have it and still take meds to help me get through each day. There are doctors that are there to help. If you are not pleased with one then keep looking until you find the one who will listen and give you the help that you need. It is a daily struggle when you are truly depressed. It’s hard to get up and work. It’s hard to go to sleep. You just want to quit trying. But you can’t do that. You have to get going even though its harder than the average person. Depression will send you to hell and back but giving up by taking your own life is not the answer. I once had the thought when I was in what I call major depression but instead I went and got help. It’s never too late and there is no sick thing as trying too many times. I am not mad at my friend. I hurt bad for his wife and child. I will not forget him. I will miss him. God speed my friend.